A20:30
I look at the report again.
Aku melihat laporan itu lagi.
My hand stops over the keyboard.
Tanganku berhenti di atas keyboard.
Last time, my boss did not like it.
Terakhir, bosku tidak menyukainya.
Now I need to try again.
Sekarang aku perlu mencoba lagi.
But my chest feels tight.
Tapi dadaku terasa sesak.
It is a small fear, not a big one.
Ini ketakutan kecil, bukan yang besar.
It sits in my stomach like a stone.
Ia duduk di perutku seperti batu.
I remember the red marks on the page.
Aku ingat tanda merah di halaman itu.
They felt like small cuts.
Mereka terasa seperti luka kecil.
But I know I learned from them.
Tapi aku tahu aku belajar dari mereka.
So I take a sip of water.
Jadi aku minum seteguk air.
And I type the first word.
Dan aku mengetik kata pertama.
CI
The Small Fear Before Trying Again
by @citraworld