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I open the file again.
Binuksan ko ulit ang file.
My fingers stop over the keyboard.
Tumigil ang mga daliri ko sa keyboard.
That same report is still there.
Nandoon pa rin ang parehong report.
I remember my last mistake.
Naalala ko ang huli kong pagkakamali.
It was just a small error.
Maliit lang naman iyon.
But it made me feel stupid.
Pero naramdaman ko ang pagiging tanga.
Now my chest feels tight.
Ngayon, naninikip ang dibdib ko.
I want to close the laptop.
Gusto kong isara ang laptop.
But I also want to finish this.
Pero gusto ko ring tapusin ito.
So I type one sentence slowly.
Kaya nag-type ako ng isang pangungusap nang dahan-dahan.
It looks okay. Not perfect, but okay.
Mukhang okay naman. Hindi perpekto, pero okay.
That small step feels big.
Ang maliit na hakbang na iyon ay pakiramdam malaki.
GR
The small fear before trying again
by @grace65